What Should I Do?

I’ve made a decision that in this next phase of my life I will not make any decisions without the guidance and reassurance from Spirit. What’s crazy is that I’ve been out here flying on my own for years. Spirit has most certainly guided me but I often thought that I knew better than the almighty and all-powerful. The beautiful thing is that even in the middle of decisions that I made that went against what I knew I should do or what my higher self and Spirit were nudging me towards, I was still blessed and loved in the detours.

As a child I taught myself that no one is going to have my back except for me. Little did I know that included Spirit. I had many, many conversations with Spirit. I talked to Spirit on a consistent and regular basis since I was a child. But I never sat down and listened or even asked what direction I should go in, or what choice I should make when presented with many different options and paths. Come to think about it I rarely thought about the long term affects of the choices that I made. I would weigh the present circumstances and of course I played out worst case scenarios. But operating from that place had less to do with my relationship Spirit and more to do with me living from fear.

Fear is nasty. It’s a topic that I have discussed before and will continue to discuss because it’s so insidious and way more prevalent in our lives than we care to admit. Fear robs us of the ability to connect with the divine in a way that allows us to trust in our creator. We think that we have to do everything by ourselves. WE have to figure out this thing called life. But who said that? Who said that we are alone in this thing? That we are all we’ve got and we can’t ask for help? Especially spiritual help?

Don’t get me wrong, people are great and they can provide guidance in times of distress. But a human being is most likely going to see an experience through the lens of their lived experiences which automatically taints the help that you were coming to them for. In the past couple of years I have had to learn how to lean on my creator for everything. I have been positioned in a way that I have not been able to go to my sources the way that I used to before. Spirit has kept me protected for my own sake, I’m sure. And I would be lying to you if I said that relying on Spirit is always easy.

Most of the time I have to be still and simply allow what is to be. Don’t emotionally react, don’t respond from pain, don’t get stuck in a downward spiral. But the hardest piece has been remaining silent. Listening and not speaking up. I know that in the past the desire to speak up was coming from a defensive place. That is not a seat of power and confidence. Defending myself says to me and the people, situation, circumstance that I am in the midst of that I don’t trust. That I NEED you to understand where I’m coming from for validation.

All of my validation comes from my creator. All of my power comes from Spirit.

So like I said at the beginning. I am only moving when Spirit tells me to move. I am speaking what Spirit guides me to say (or not say). I am living this part of my life completely in alignment with the divine.

In my next post I want to talk about divine guidance with regard to the ancestors. Cause BABY!!!!! That’s where some of the most potent spiritual power resides.