Who Are You?

Notes from January 25, 2023

Who are you and who do you want to be? Try and answer these questions without referencing a role or someone else, only focus on you.

I’m not sure who I am in the this moment. My initial answer is I am that I am and this is a good answer when I have a clearer understanding of what that actually looks like. AND doing the actions for some time to see how the practical aspect of that statement work in day-to-day life.

What do I want to be?

I want to be confident and sure of myself.

How does that look?

I’m not easily swayed by someone else’s ideas, thoughts opinions, beliefs, fears, traumas, doubts, worries, pleasure, happiness. I want to speak up and advocate for myself in a healthy way.

How does that look?

My voice is connected to my knowing, wisdom and confidence and I can express it clearly. Even if my needs, wants and desires change I can always articulate those things I listed for myself and move toward o act on them in a healthy way. When I say healthy I mean a way that honors myself and anyone else that is a part of my needs, wants, desires from a loving, compassionate place with boundaries.

I want to say NO and say it with clarity and not fear.

I want to trust myself.

I want to love fully with my whole heart, spirit and body.

I want to be honest.

I want to be truthful.

I want my actions, words and thoughts to be in alignment.

Notes from January 30, 2023

Who are you and who do you want to be?

I am a concentrated aspect of God living in the flesh, experiencing this life so that I can remember who I am.

I want to be powerful. When I say that word I think of cement pillars and iron bars within my body but instead of the heaviness of cement and iron it’s actually pillars of light that beam, radiate and pulsate.

I want to be someone who has some understanding of themselves, even if that understanding changes and fluctuates.

I want to be someone who radiates love and joy from within. To love myself unapologetically.

I want to be someone who honors my commitments to myself.

I want to be someone who loves myself even when I fuck up and make mistakes.

I want to be someone who can forgive with a full heart.

I want to be someone who laughs a lot.

I want to be someone who wears bright colors, wears makeup, gets my nails and toes done and love to look good for me and only me.

I want to be someone who can hold myself accountable.

I want to be someone who is fearless or at least uses the energy of fear to propel me forward, up and out.